“Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.” ― Kahlil Gibran
and… the depth of love I’ve felt from you has only grown deeper as time has passed.
I shudder to think that it has almost been two years since my grandma passed away. Two days before it happened, I remember sitting at her bedside. I thought to myself that she would be home in a few days, and life would go on. I never stopped think about the screeching hault that would soon come. I never knew that two years later I’d weep so heartily that my insides would feel bruised.
I even took this photo on my phone, something I’ve always done at every pivotal point in my life, thinking “I’ll show her this when she’s better and say ‘LOOK how much better you are now!”‘.
For as long as I can remember, I’ve been filling up hard drives with tons of photos to remind myself of where I’d been and what I’d felt. I’ve documented so many little things not knowing their importance at first, only to look back years later and realize how much had changed since first taking them. I’m so glad that I’ve stuck to that weird habit.
Hence, it makes sense that one of my greatest passions is photography. My grandmother was ALWAYS supportive of it too. It’s uncanny how now, I make so many decisions based on what I believe would do her proud. I really had no idea that her support, encouragement and abiding love throughout my life would be forces that hold me together now, after she’s gone…
As I’m plagued with the full plethora of grieving emotions, on one of those days when I allow myself to miss her wholly, I’m realizing how little we realize the value of the moment we live in now.
We often don’t see the little things happening around us until they’ve passed. Cliché, I know, but so true.
If you’ll only try to tune in and imagine your life without the things you have now, maybe you’d catch a glimpse of just how lucky you are. Don’t wait until something or someone is gone to miss them… if you know what I mean.
Here’s to hoping we all cherish what we have while we have it… Tomorrow isn’t guaranteed.